Helpless and unable to Help.

Have you ever been in a situation, where you feel so helpless? This morning I saw the status on facebook of one of my beloved. Sensing something was not right I sent her a personal message instead of posting on the public post, followed by a call.
I could hear from her voice she was choking, but she was not sharing. She kept on saying she was ok, but I knew otherwise. Yet I could not do anything to console her. she also forbid me to investigate and not to talk to the other party.I wanted to see her, at least be there for her , to provide a shoulder for her to cry on.?? But she is not ready to see anyone at this moment. I feel so helpless , so hopeless , unable to do anything for my baby. Do all parent react like this or am I just over reacting??
What can I do except to hope she will come out of this soon. she is a strong person,she always has been. A good friend of mine comment I could only pray. yes I guess she is right. I shall to that and leave it to God Almighty who is in control.

The Bible in one sheet.

A friend sent this in the mail. thanks SK. this is really neat. Imagine accessing to the Bible in one single page.


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This is by far the best email I have received and the best one that I will ever forward.
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Emergency Telephone Numbers
These are more effective than 911
When -
You are sad, phone John 14
You have sinned, phone Psalm 51
You are facing danger, phone Psalm 91
People have failed you, phone Psalm 27
It feels as though God is far from you, phone Psalm 139
Your faith needs stimulation, phone Hebrews 11
You are alone and scared, phone Psalm 23
You are worried, phone Matthew 8:19-34
You are hurt and critical, phone 1 Corinthians 13
You wonder about Christianity, phone 2 Corinthians 5:15-18
You feel like an outcast, phone Romans 8:31-39
You are seeking peace, phone Matthew 11:25-30
It feels as if the world is b igger than God, phone Psalm 90
You need Christ like insurance, phone Romans 8:1-30
You are leaving home for a trip , phone Psalm 121
You are praying for yourself, phone Psalm 87
You require courage for a task, phone Joshua 1
Inflation's and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone Mark 10:17-31
You are depressive, phone Psalm 27
Your bank account is empty, phone Psalm 37
You lose faith in mankind, phone 1 Corinthians 13
It looks like people are unfriendly, phone John 15
You are losing hope, phone Psalm 126
You feel the world is small comp ared to you, phone Psalm 19
You want to carry fruit, phone John 15
Paul's secret for happiness, phone Colossians 3:12-17
With big opportunity/ discovery, phone Isaiah 55
To get along with other people, phone Romans 12
ALTERNATE NUMBERS
For dealing with fear, call Psalm 47
For security, call Psalm 121:3
For assurance, call Mark 8:35
For reassurance, call Psalm 145:18
ALL THESE NUMBERS MAY BE PHONED DIRECTLY.
NO OPERATOR ASSISTANCE IS NECESSARY.
ALL LINES TO HEAVEN ARE AVAILABLE 24 HOURS A DAY.
FEED YOUR FAITH, AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH

WHAT A BORING DAY THAT WAS

Two days of raya holiday, with nothing much to do , except checking my mail and facebook. read some blogs and comments. The weather isnt helping at all. Too hot to go out. Is this going to be a foretell of things to come? I dont want to end my life like this. I got to get a job fast. I cant carry on this way. I will go insane.
My wife was quite concern and offer to drive me around some factories nearby to check out if there are any job opening. Tomorrow will resume duty for the next 7 days, before I call it quit in the workforce. Then it's job hunting again. Wish me the best. I need to look to Him.
I think this song by whitney houston best describe how I feel right now

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all

winter’s storm has come and darkened my sun
After all that we’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to

I look to you
I look to you

After all my strength is gone
In you I can move on

I look to you
I look to you

And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song

I look to you

Climbing Apek Hill one more time.

Since we missed our last hiking trip, we are glad we could make it to this the hike at saga. As I was not sure of the way to this hill I had made arrangement with my friend derique to meet at our usual meeting place. We left klang at around 8.00am my friend informed me he had another event after the hike so I had to drive my own car.It started raining during the journey and my friend ask if we should cancel the hike or to continue. I deceide to proceed as planned(not wanting to repeat the same wrong decision I made the last time) We reached the hill at around 10.00am.The reason it took us so long to reach was , enroute we detour to some shop to have breakfast as my friend and his companion had not taken their breakfast.
The trail was wet due to the rain the previous day. Somehow this time the climb seems easy .Was it because I had conquered Bukit Naung? Anyway I still enjoyed the climb even though it was the second time I had climb this hill. My friend Irene and her family too enjoyed the climb( especially the son Joe),and request we come back again. One thing I liked about this hill is it is so different from the others that I have climb. somehow the community here had taken ownership of the hill and provide alot of facilities and making this hill as cosy as possible.There is a canopy and even a clock at the summit. There are tables and benches to allow people to relax and have their meals. At the foot of the hill there is even some brushes for people to wash their dirty shoes .This comes handy during the wet seasons. We tried to look for the herbal tea stall that brogger ah hong mentioned in his blog but could not find it.Maybe it is on another side of the hill I guess.




some brushes at the foot of the hill for people to wash their dirty shoes

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WHAT AN ADVENTURE

We left klang around midnight for Kenyir lake on sunday and arrived the jetty at around 9.30 am the next day. From the jetty it was another 1 hour and 45 mins to our destination in the one corner of the lake. My friends lost no time in getting the fishing gears , the moment we reach our destination. On the first day it was pretty warm and the gen set was switched on only around 7.00 pm every day and auto shut around 5.00am. so there was nothing much to do except to fish and fish. I did not catch any until the second day. I got five in all , but two got away. My lovely wife got 4. not bad for first timers. .
We had fresh fish almost every meal,some from our catch. Almost 18 hours on the road, and 3 hours boat ride. Very tired and exhausted, but otherwise quite enjoyable.
What a trip.,what an adventure.!
Lesson learnt from the trip: you need patience to fish.
Here are some of the photos of our trip and more here

with my lovely wife.

part of the kenyir lake,totally cut off from the world

our boat house,photo credit:Ps Steven Teo

CHANGED

Though you may denied it,
Baby I sense it, you have changed
No Matter what I said
No Matter what I do
I know now, they meant nothing to you

Though you may not admit it
Baby I sense it , you have have changed
Since your mind 's make up
So be it, Do what you must

Let it be said
It was you who changed not me
So have it your way
Do your thing

Maybe someday when you see things differently
When you choose to come back
Just like the Prodigal son's home coming
A Daddy with open arm will be waiting.

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FRIENDS :WILL THEY REMAIN AS FRIENDS?

To my many friends, my appreciation to you. I wish to say thanks for being my friends and it is my desire we remains friends till eternity. I have been thinking and wondering why some friends choose to cut off ties? I would understand and even respect you if you would at least let me know the reasons why we can't remain friends anymore, but to just disappear without a word is just being iresponsible!. It makes me reliase people can be fake, they say one thing and do another. It changes my view on the human race. It open my eyes to see that people can be deceitful. It caution me now to be more careful whom I consider as friends and not to be too attached with anyone.

But I am thankful and grateful for the handful who still remains faithful friends Thank you my friends.

VISITING OUR SON AT FELDA INAS, JOHORE

Saturday morning, my wife woke me up to inform she wanted to visit our son, in Johore later in the afternoon. so I said ok and went back to sleep. A little while later she complained the Dog had vomitted. so I had to clean up the mess. Could not sleep after that, so started to pack after having my shower. We left Klang at around 2.00pm after having our lunch. It was not a smooth drive as there was an accident along the highway. So finally arrived at Felda Inas plantation, where our son was based.Four hours drive and I was dead tired. Tried to take a nap ,but could not so end up watching some videos. My son works in a palm oil mill which is located deep in the jungle and very , very far from town. So there is nothing one can do except watching Tv. There is no internet connection except in their office. So I took the opportunity to jog , as I was still toying with the idea of taking part in the coming community run in klang which will be held in October 11th 2009. I think I manage to cover about 3.5 km still short of the target of 6km. It had started raining and so I make my way back to the house where we were staying. In the evening it was TV and video again.
We spend a day with him, had dinner together with his boss on sunday night. All too soon we have to leave the following day .I left my laptop with him since he is all alone there and the laptop can at least keep him occupied,,so that he will not be too bored.
We decided to leave in the morning to avoid the traffic jam. We left around 7.40am and reached home at 11.30pm. Seems the trip back are always faster. since I was not tired , spend some time surfing, until in the evening and deceided to go for jogging to prepare for the coming community run in oct. An unexpected thing happen while I was there.
Read it all here.
Wonder why bad news always come one after another? I was informed our company had opt not to give me a contract after my retirement in october , not too long ago and now this??