HAD I BEEN A SUPER DAD.?

Saw this interesting article on father's love here. I grew up without knowing my father. He passsed away when I was only three.so I dont know much about him and definately do not have a role model to follow. Sometimes I wonder if I had been a good father to my children and my god daughter.I tried the best I could to be one, but is that good enough? It sadden me when I see them the way they are. sometimes they just dont listen when we give them advice. I know and I dont like to compare my kids with other people's. All I want is children who are obedient and not to do things that hurts their parent, particullaly their mother. In the book of Ephesians 6:1 it says Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right. I have spoke this to them when they were young, I just hope it will still be in them and serve as a reminder to them.I might not have many days left on this earth, but know this I loved you guys and hoped for your success in life. someday you will have your own family and children too and hope you will be a super dad to them.

BLOOD DONATION II

We had planned for a movie together with my eldest son, who came back from johore to spent new year with us. So after some visitors left around 12.00pm we head for cinema at Aeon Bukit tinggi.There was a long queque and we were debating wheather to turn back or stand in the queue. Reuben , our son volunteer to queue since we were already there. But the tickets for all the shows we wanted to watched was sold out! We booked for the next day's screening instead. Since we were still in the new year mood and we did not have our famaily outting for a long while purchased for two shows for the same day , one in the afternoon and another show in the night. Yeah it will be a moviethon sort of..
We walk around the mall after that and happen to see the blood donation drive booth and since my wife had earlier indicated she wanted to do her bit if ever there was a blood donation drive in town to let her know. so I ask her if she wanted to do it then, she was a bit scare but nevertheless pluck up the courage to get it over. she even prompted our son, who were hesitant at first but eventually he too got over the fear of blood and joined in the crowb as well.This turn out to be a different new year outting for us.Here are the photos of their first attempt .

IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT.

would you agreed the greatest thrill an artist had is to be able to display his creation or masterpiece .I am sure he wants to let the whole world what he had just painted. Imagine being not able to do that. Everybody knows the Mona lisa was painted by Leonardo da Vinci. I am not sure if Mona Lisa was a real person or someone Leonardo make up. If she was a real person and what if she had told Leonardo. you can't display what you had just painted? If that had happened then we would not be able to appreciate that master piece today, dont you agreed? The same would apply to a photographer. Imagine after taking great pain in capturing his master piece and later being told by his model, no you can not post it or show it to anybody. Today with the technology we had and the popular site like facebook ,almost everybody around the world gets to see it. I am sure he will be very frustrated indeed. Well that's how I felt. I had capture a couple of lovely shots of my god daughter, and then she forbid me from posting on facebook.I just want to scream out loud,it's just not right! aarrh..unless she is ashamed of being with me or be seen by her friends.I hoped not, I prayed not. As for me I am not ashamed and in fact very proud to be with her! It is meaniless if I cant show off my work and especially of someone whom I am so proud of. I just dont get it. she says they were not nice but I found them just beautiful .everyone of it. well you will be the judge. Below are some of the shots taken. She mention only Facebook, but never said anything about my blog right? However I am thankful not everyone thinks like she does and I have some models who gladly allow me to display my works. Thanks girls. you know who you are.

YES, I AM HAINANESE

I am a pure Hainanese.Both my parent are hainainese who came from the Hainan Island of China. Both my children speaks Hainanese well. Even my wife who is half teochew speaks the dialect well. I am surprised my youngest son has shown interest in the language and even post some of the Hainanese rap songs on Facebook.Here are some of the songs which I found quite interesting.Hope you like them as well.

NEW YEAR DAY, YEAR OF THE TIGER

Got up this morning, went to the park to jog as I normally do on sundays. Got back after 4 laps. Had my bath and waited for my wife to get ready for our new year visitation to family and relativies. First stop at my mum's house followed by my granny's. then we were off to my mum- in law and thereafter my wife's boss house. It was a hot day and the weather was just unbearable and so we headed for home to rest. In the evening my nephew dropped by. So good to see my little grand nephew sebastian again. We spent some time talking about our family and old times.Just when they were about to leave; my God daughter. snow came by and my wife cook a simple meal .this was the first time she joined us for a meal together at home. Nothing like a home cook meal with the family together. It is a very memorable day for me.
Tomorrow another day for visitation and hopefully after that can rest at home.

February: A Wonderful month.

February is definately a good month for me. Firstly I just quit my job at the cold room, which was unbearable for me. I am resting and slowly enjoying my rest which I did not when I first retired. I had some good times again with my God daughter, snow. our relationship is going from strenght to strenght.A few days earlier we had a missunderstanding after a shopping outting. She asked me to shop alone while she and her friend looked for their own things. I did not like it at all-to be left alone. I guess she saw it on my face and we did not talk much on the way back.Things did not improved even after a few days later, until last thursday when I happen to see her car at the car park and next to her was vacant. I was there to test out my photo skill and to experiment with my camera. After I had finish shooting I could not believe it . I saw her leaving just in time and so invited her for a drink, which she accepted. so we caught up and things have improved since. We had resume jogging at the park. Last couple of day she was able to express her inner feelings which was a surprise to me and at the same time I thrilled me to bits. It was long time coming baby. I really love it. Another surprise I had was on chinese new year eve, when I dropped by to hand something to her. she prompted me to accompany her to shop for some item, and of course I agreed and had a wonderful time walking at the mall, looking for her shoes and also mine. It was a memorable day for me.
Oh yes, I too had a great time with my bloger friend
whom I consider very dear to me. we did some shopping together, enjoyed some meals, hanging out together and even for a show. so February is a good month for me.
thanks girls for the love. Thanks for making an old man happy.

snap, snap away

Since the last photo shooting outing, have pick up quite a bit of tips from the expert.But still need more experimenting, exploring and testing out the new camera.
yesterday and today did some random shooting at Jusco mall at Bukit tinggi. still not too please with the results. guess need more practice.Maybe on chinese new year?
Here are some of the shots taken.

I Goofed

I still could not get over what had happen a couple of days ago, Friday to be exact. What was suppose to be an exciting shopping outting with my beloved daughter turn sour in the end.
Well it all started out well, until for some reason she told me to go on my own while she and her friend look for their stuff. Seems innocent enough and so that was what I did , but when she did not call back, then it dawn upon me, that I was been dumped??
it was not what I had in mind. I had earlier wanted to shopped together with her and buy stuff together.I felt so unwanted and abandoned.
Finally when she message me after a couple of hours, by then I was really upset and I think I Countenance shows. she saw it through and react accordingly.
Through out the journey back we did not speak a word.When we finally reached klang at JJ to drop her off , a part of me wanted to say something to her, but somehow the words could not come out of my mouth.I felt like a jerk. why didnt I say something.
What was my reason for my action? was I being selfish??
Why must this thing happen, all I wanted was to make my girl happy.I had every good intention. Maybe I was not a good dad.I wish there is a book "how to be a super daddy for dummy" I can use all the help I can get.
After I day I deceided to apologize to her and her friend for my bad behaviour and posted my status on Facebook, both of them responsed and offer their apologies as well,making me feel even guilty. Later in the night she wrote me a message, saying she had read my blog, and was touched because I bloged a lot of things about her. She must have reliased how much I cared for her. I am glad she knows. Now perhaps I need to step back and give her more space. It is time to let go and let her do her own things on her own and I can watched from a distant. I wished her happiness .Take care my child. If you ever feel to talk you know I am only a phone away.

MY MAIDEN PHOTO SHOOT TRIP

Had a great outing last sunday with the fun gang or the confius group , as they prefered to be called. Thanks to my friend Jason Oh for inviting me. I was first attracted to his photo with all the beautiful model and self invite myself for the next photo shoot and true to his word he kept me in the loop and so , I was able to experience first hand what it was like out there.Equally enjoyable was the food and of course good company of friends (old and new) I have never met such a warm and friendly bunch, they made you right at home and being one of the gangs. Thanks guys, and am so looking forward to our next outting.
Earlier I have suggested two new models and everthing seems set and we (jason and I)even had a meeting with one of the girl. Jason wanted to get to know the model first prior to the shooting, so that they will not be so tense on the actual day. We were looking forward to the outting when they (the new models) deceided to pull out. I thought I had a card in my sleeve, and wanted to bring my darling daugther to fill in, but even she could not make it at the eleventh hour due to circumstances. At that moment I felt so disappointed and betrayed and wondered why everyone around me seems to disppoint me.Now thinking back I guess I was a bit unfair to them. They all have valid reasons. Perhaps another time girls? Good thing Jason had back up plan.(plan B as tiger would say)and thus save the day.
Here are some of my shots.Still got a lot of catching up to do and lots of learning I know, but I got good teachers who are willing to impart their knowledge. I am so ever grateful.






one of the model