I still could not get over what had happen a couple of days ago, Friday to be exact. What was suppose to be an exciting shopping outting with my beloved daughter turn sour in the end.
Well it all started out well, until for some reason she told me to go on my own while she and her friend look for their stuff. Seems innocent enough and so that was what I did , but when she did not call back, then it dawn upon me, that I was been dumped??
it was not what I had in mind. I had earlier wanted to shopped together with her and buy stuff together.I felt so unwanted and abandoned.
Finally when she message me after a couple of hours, by then I was really upset and I think I Countenance shows. she saw it through and react accordingly.
Through out the journey back we did not speak a word.When we finally reached klang at JJ to drop her off , a part of me wanted to say something to her, but somehow the words could not come out of my mouth.I felt like a jerk. why didnt I say something.
What was my reason for my action? was I being selfish??
Why must this thing happen, all I wanted was to make my girl happy.I had every good intention. Maybe I was not a good dad.I wish there is a book "how to be a super daddy for dummy" I can use all the help I can get.
After I day I deceided to apologize to her and her friend for my bad behaviour and posted my status on Facebook, both of them responsed and offer their apologies as well,making me feel even guilty. Later in the night she wrote me a message, saying she had read my blog, and was touched because I bloged a lot of things about her. She must have reliased how much I cared for her. I am glad she knows. Now perhaps I need to step back and give her more space. It is time to let go and let her do her own things on her own and I can watched from a distant. I wished her happiness .Take care my child. If you ever feel to talk you know I am only a phone away.
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