MIXED FEELING.

Just got back from the gym. Had been working out hard this week. Yesterday, it was back to back, body combat and Jukari. Today, body combat again. Body aching all over. Is it because of age or is it the work and pressure at the office.?  It is raining right now, a cooling feeling, making me sleepy and wish I could sleep and never wake up again.  Don't have to worry about tomorrow or anything that is bothering me..Wanted to call up somebody so badly, but feel it might not be a good idea. Waiting for the call that never came. I know it will be a very long wait. I am never good at waiting. I don't want to bother . I don't want to be a nuisance. Let me  continue in my own solitude, trying to remember to forget. Sometimes wish it never happen, sometimes glad it did.

Holiday on my mind. I think a break will do me good. But where to go, ? Who will go with me?  Yes ,I remember the promise, I was looking forward to a holiday together. Will it happen or will it be just empty words.  will you make it happen or will you just watch and see me go.

Sorry if this blog is a bit confusing or don't make sense. I am just trying to  put down my thoughts into words. I have not been able to think straight lately.
good night people. I think I will go and lie down now.