Yesterday (june 19th) had a quite Father's day celebration with my family. suddently I had some old memories of yesteryears when I used to play the role of father to some God daughters. Unfortunately all except for one have left me.
One girl I took care when she was just 2 years or so. Occasionaly she would stay over night with me. I would pick her up from the baby sitter as her parent worked quite late and the baby sitter center closed early. so the arrangemtn was I would pick her up on the way back from my office and the parent will later pick her up after their dinner. This was the arrangement till she was about 10 years or so. Then one fine morning when I met her , she did not greet me with her usual hug and when I asked her she did not response. I asked her father about it and he promised will give me an answer .till this day I have not receive the answer. We will meet as we attend the same church,but I have never brought u[ the issue again. I just don't understand, in my mind I just reliase I have been used. and since I had serve their purpose, I am no longer needed.
The second case involved a girl working at the gym and this was the shortest relationship. She was very carring when she agreed to be my god daughter and all this changed, when she prefer to listen to a lie about me and that was the end of our rather short friendship.
The last one hurt me very much. I met her about 13 years ago at a gym and she was the first one to
befriend me and even introduced me to the rest of her group of friends. One fine day during dinner and
intentional invited another friend to dinner with her and during dinner I asked if she would like to be my god daughter, but she did not answer yes nor did she decline. so I mention to her "so since you remain silent I would take it as a yes and my friend will be the witness. sure enough the next day at the gym she called ne Dad , since she our relationship grew and we even had a couple of trips together. We still kept in touch after she left for Australia and occasionaly will message each other. My last message was not replied and I did not give much thought to it, as she might be busy with her work. Until one day I reliase I was unfriend on her facebook. I check the rest of my family members whom she was friends as well. They too was unfriended. My messages to her was never responsed. So I guess she no longer was to have anything with me . What sadden me most was I was not even given an explanation, the reason for her action.
The last one is my rock star weekend daughter. What started as a joke when a few strangers commented if she was my daughter when ever we were at the rock crag. so we started sharing on social media and as a joke would hashtage weekend dotter and she would do the same. somehow over the years she had not dismissed it when I introduce her as my daughter and she would introduced me toour mutual friends
as her Dad. I just hope she would not abandon me like the rest . So for now I guess I would just enjoy playing my role till who knows when. I am now in my twilight years and who knows when it's time for me to go.
No comments:
Post a Comment