I've Waited Til' All The Flowers Had Withered

In the age of internet you can find almost anything. Found this  song on youtube with english translation as I don't read mandarin at all.One of my favourite song..It speaks of the frustration, 

   lamentation of 

 waiting for someone. the song writter says wait till the flowers have 

wither. While that's life. All of us have some way or another find ourselves in such situation. 

No one likes waiting.  No point of waiting and waste you time on such a one. You time is better spent on other worthwhile matters.  Move on..

 

IT'S YEAR 2023

 Today is January, 29th 2023. In two day's time we will be entering into February,2023. Time really move fast.This is the new year, many things happen in year past we cannot undo,but what we can do is not to repeat those mistakes again.

I cannot deny there were good memories, but at the same time must face the reality that somethings cannot last forever and people do change. So it is better to just move on. Try not to act. on impluse.

Also I need to cut down on expenses, and be more careful on my on line purchases. Time to save some money for rainy days.

I prayed for better days ahead . Just live a day at a time.

YOU HAVE LOST THAT LOVING FEELIN'

 Tom Jones sings it "It's not unusual to be loved by anyone

Elvis sings 

Which is your favourite?

A QUIET FATHER'S DAY

Yesterday (june 19th) had a quite Father's day celebration with my family. suddently I had some old memories of yesteryears when I used to play the role of father to some God daughters. Unfortunately all except for one have left me.

One girl I took care when she was just 2 years or so. Occasionaly she would stay over night with me. I would pick her up from the baby sitter as her parent worked quite late and the baby sitter center closed early. so the arrangemtn was I would pick her up on the way back from my office and the parent will later pick her up after their dinner. This was the arrangement till she was about 10 years or so. Then one fine morning when I met her , she did not greet me with her usual hug and when I asked her she did not response. I asked her father about it and he promised will give me an answer .till this day I have not receive the answer.  We will meet  as we attend the same church,but I have never brought u[ the issue again.  I just don't understand, in my mind I just reliase I have been used. and since I had serve their purpose, I am no longer needed.

The second case involved a girl working at the gym and this was the shortest relationship. She was very carring when she agreed to be my god daughter and all this changed, when she prefer to listen to a lie about me and  that was the end of our rather short friendship.

The last one hurt me very much.  I met her about 13 years ago at a gym and she was the first one to

befriend me and even introduced me to the rest of her group of friends.  One fine day during dinner and

intentional invited another friend to dinner with her and during dinner I asked if she would like to be my god daughter, but she did not answer yes nor did she decline. so I  mention to her "so since you remain silent I would take it as a yes and my friend will be the witness. sure enough the next day at the gym she called  ne Dad , since she our relationship grew and we even had a couple of trips together. We still kept in touch after she left for Australia and occasionaly will message each other. My last message was not replied and I did not give much thought to it, as she might be busy with her work. Until one day I reliase I was unfriend on her facebook. I check the rest of my family members whom she was friends as well. They too was unfriended. My messages to her was never responsed. So I guess she no longer was to have anything with me . What  sadden me most was I was not even given an explanation, the reason for her action. 

The last one is my rock star weekend daughter. What started as a joke when a few strangers commented if she was my daughter when ever we were at the rock crag. so we started sharing on social media and as a joke would hashtage weekend dotter and she would do the same. somehow over the years she had not dismissed it when I introduce her as my daughter and she would introduced me toour mutual friends

as her Dad.  I just hope she would not abandon me like the rest . So for now I guess I would just enjoy playing my role till who knows when.   I am now in my twilight years and who knows when it's time for me to go. 

JUST LET IT PAST.

 Have you ever wished you have a crystal glass, where you can see the future and thus avoid making a mistake or avoiding someone?

Well that may be good, but I think learning from one's mistake through life's experience is better, even though we might get hurt in the process. At least we can learn from it and not to repeat it.

What is gone, is gone forever, do not yearn for the past. Let it past. New things and far better things are ahead.

People come and go in your life. So be it. But appeciate those who stayed.

LET GO OR LET IT GO?

 

This sunday's service message. I was drawn to one of the point. Let Go.  so is it the same as Let it go .

It does speaks to me. Maybe it's time I let go the thing, what I can no longer on hold to. In order for new things to happen, the old must go. No point clincling to the past. Past is past it will remain as past.The future is new. So that basically sum up Ps Reuben's message. 

Here is a song that is so familiar about let it go.

SO THIS IS GOODBYE FOREVER?

 What a sad event to greet me in year 2022. I found out I have been unfriend. All my messages

were not responsed.   Why oh why is this happening?  What have I done wrong?  At least you have to give me a reason for this action. You know even a condemn man has this right to know why he is condemn.

This would have been our 11 years of relationship.  Time to face reality.  People can change no matter how good you treat them.  so no point living in denial. just let go.. This is a painful lesson for me . I have

to be careful in future .no more getting myself to be involve in such fruitless caring relationship.

I  don't have much years left.Just want to do things I cherish. I am thankful though to have my grand children who cheered me up.

just watching them grow up and enjoy their presence while I still have breath.

SOMEBODY DONE SOMEBODY WRONG SONG

 

WHY OH WHY?

 After almost two years, she suddenly changed. I wonder why? What have I done? Are you ashamed to be

seen around me ?   I thought 2020 was bad, but 2021 have not given me any positive vibes yet.

so sad. First the other girl who went to down under went MIA and did not even response to my messages

So that's two down and one left.

ON THIS DAY ...MARCH 18 2020..

Things went on as normal just two days before we were locked down.  I went for a body combat launch, celebrate a pre birthday for one of my god daughter. Then  during our dinner, we got the news, two days later everyone had to stayed indoor with limited movement..What's happening?
Suddently we were not able to do the things which we used to do before, like going to the gym, cinema etc. Some people cannot even go to work,but because I work in a company which falls
 under  essential service, I still have to work.
Church services are now on line. Even gym are providing some online work out.,but it's nothing like
being there in person.

It's already a month now. hope all will be over soon. I can't wait to get back to the gym and back to
my other activities like hiking and rock climbing.

Hope all is well soon.

YEAR END 2019

Well it is that time of the year again. In less than a week, we will step into a new year.2020
So many events, incidents happened for year 2019, some pleasant, and some no so pleasant.
Here are some of the memories I can recall for the year.
*My first god daughter st who is now in Australia, I guess is happily settled here.
 In the first year she was there, I still get calls from her and occassionaly messages. Then it stop all together.Well that's the story of my life. Those whom I cared for don't seems to stay for long.They come and they leave.

** My gym dotter left her old gym for another gym, which gave her a better deal. I am happy for her.
 Just as I fear, since we don't get to meet that often now compare to previously ,she  too has drifted away...Oh well...

***  My third whom I nick name weekend dotter, since we only met on weekend most of the time. It was quite by accident she became my god dotter. Someone we met at the outdoor while climbing asked me if she was my daughter, and I replied does she look like me? I guess then she must be.We joked about it and hastaged each other every time we took some selfies. since then we have met quite
often and even celebrate each other's birthdays. She is by far very generous with her time and most
of the time able to accompany me when I make a request to meet up. She also help me to do a multi pitch climb at damai wall,my first ever.

****  This year I decided to keep my beard for the children camp which was in November.some of the reaction I got:-
i. one lady says oh are you taking a vow?
ii. I get funny stares from various people
iii. Some very good vides from some friends,  and even those not so close one. comments like
    it suit you.. or new look?  how I wished I can grew like yours. meant alot.
iv. My car gave me problems countless time this year. I had the engine overhauled, followed by a
    changed of the gearbox as the sensor was not working.It cause me a bomb.Then just a couple of days a got the gear would not engage while driving and now the car is in the workshop. I don't know how much it will cost me this time. My road tax is due next month. what a way to end the year and to start a new year. I had plan for another trip to mulu in May. Now I am not sure if I will have enough
for the trip. I had intended to settle my credit cards debts once I get my bonus, but now it looks like
my plans are going up in smoke.

Anyway Happy new year everyone. Hope you will have a good year ahead.

AFTER THOUGHTS

How time flies, another two more months we will enter yet another new year.
I just celebrate my 65th birthday, with some good friends at the gym. This year only my elder son with his wife, my grandaughter and my wife accompany me for my birthday.

My God daughter in Australia just wish me casually not like her usual loving ways.
I am just wondering maybe it is just a passing phrase. I am never fated to have a good father-daughter relationship?   Dare I hope for better improvement for my other two?
I guess I will just take things not so seriously and take it as they come no point over think of such things.
Anyway I always says one thing and then do another and keep changing my mind whenever I meet up with them. I think it's my weakness to love so easily..


I am still loving my outdoor activities.. Next year I hope to be able to do another Mulu and or Kuching trip.Catching up with old friends before time catches up with me.


 

WATCH OUT

There is no escape from this annoying advertisment. Lately there are so many of these smart watch add, that keep on poping up, whenever I am on facebook or even instagram.
There all look so nice and the features are so nice. It's so tempting, but I have to make a stand and
not give in. I had a few of them already and they don't last.Even those that cost me quite a bit dont last.Below are just two examples of now good looking these watches are. Some of the deal is really a steal. But I have learnt (from bad experience)if a deal is too good to be true, chances are , they are.
I have been ripped off by some dishonest people and ended up with some cheap stuff instead of what they advertised. so I have to be extra careful in order not to fall victims of their deceiful trade.

The branded ones are too expensive.  So I guess I just have made do with just admiring the post for now. My dream watch is a polar, or a Hua wei      ?

I ended up with this because of the discount offered plus I had made purchase on this web site before and so I have confident to make my purchase here.  However the only thing I found working to my liking was the bluetooth camera remote. Other functions don't seems to work. Like mail and phone alert.

NEW YEAR, NEW HOPE

After months of deliberating, I finally did what I should have done long ago.  I torn up the album that records the memory that I was holding on to.  Despite the numerous hint , I still refuse to give up hope. Finally it dawn upon me, it will not happen. She has been diplomatic I could tell. Everytime the excuse was the same wording. Have been busy lately . Sometimes I wished people will just be straight forward and tell the truth rather than beating around the bush. Anyway I have put it all behind me now and move on since.
I am glad I did , because on the 8th of Jan 2019 I found someone adorable , warm and friendly and she call me Daddy..So  life is great and if you give out love, you will received them in return.

Looking foward to have more adventure and chilling time ahead with my angel.


cheers

Sure Don't Miss You

The dip- this is the body combat 78 cool down track.

Someday I might miss you
But I sure don't miss you right now
I was blue as a man could be
When you left me
But I sure don't miss you right now

It took me awhile
To get back on my feet
It took me awhile
To smile again
I was ashamed that I could ever be so weak
But I love you girl
Yes I did

Someday I might miss you
But I sure don't miss you right now
I was blue as a man could be
When you left me
But I sure don't miss you right now

When you put me down I was
All torn up
Sure enough
Crying every night
When I was eatin life
And everything feels so new
Finally got over you

Someday I might miss you
But I sure don't miss you right now
I was blue as a man could be
When you left me
But I sure don't miss you right now

Some nights I start to feel real weak
I get so low and down
I can hardly sleep
But I know this too shall pass
And at last
I don't miss you, baby

Someday I might miss you
But I sure don't miss you right now
I was blue as a man could be
When you left me
But I sure don't miss you right now

Someday I might miss you
But I sure don't miss you right now
I was blue as a man could be
When you left me
But I sure don't miss you right now

MALAYSIA DAY HIKE 2018

This year's Malaysia day falls on a sunday. In the past years I usually does a run, maining because my boss always sponsor the run but since this year it falls on a sunday and I have already made pre arrangement to take my favourite person(,who happen to be the body combat and body pump instructor).  for a hike.So a hike it is. I am glad she is one that keep to her promise and as the day approach she did not stand up on me. One more girl was suppose to join me, but she injured her ankle on the eve of the hike so had to pull out. I had made lunch reservation for 3 at the famous beggar chicken restaurant here . Even though I had a few other friends joining the hiking, but all do not want to join us for lunch.
In the end both of us had to finish what was ordered. Anyway it was a good hike and we had a good time. She seems to enjoyed the hike too and I hope to have more adventures with her. Maybe I will get her to do some rock climbing with me next?

SHOPPERS BEWARE OF THIS BOGUS SITE

Just to share my unpleasant experience recently. I am a great fan of reebok, les mills products. As I could not find  some of the item local, I tried to look them out on the net. I have bought quite a few items from https://www.zalora.com.my/men/clothing/ so it never occur to me there are conman and cheaters out there. I saw three items  and payment went through and then the long wait. When I they  finally arrive and I got a shock of my life . Instead of getting what I ordered, it was some cheap made in china stuff. When I contacted the buyer, he got the cheek so says the staff made a mistake and my items was wrong went to another buyer and his item was sent to me instead.   I did some check on the net and  sure enough there were others who got cheated as well and all share similar stories. I was a costly mistake for me so I hope others will not suffer the same fate as me. The buyer email is jordan@gaudinessmall.com. There are other emails used but all with the same dormain. ie gaudinessmall.com. the webpage is  
 http://www.asanadealers.com/
so beware. Anyone knows where can I lodge a report to reebok? 

IF DREAM COMES TRUE...

It was just  like a scene from a movie. Even though it was a short dream, but I remember the details.
my princess just woke up and she ask for her daddy..I was so happy. then I woke up. oh it was just a dream. If only it was not just a dream..Was it an omen?
But then again ,  dream do come true, this is what I want.. Who knows?

SAYING GOODBYE TO ANOTHER YEAR

Another two days before we welcome the new year.

Two more climbing events over the week end.  Over all this has not been a bad year , though

there were some not so good moments.But I am grateful nevertheless.  What am I looking

forward next year?

1) maybe a course on rock climbing?

2) Hike more? (somewhere further from my town?

3) No more looking back, but moving forward.

4) More saving perhaps.

5) One hike in Kuching.

Just  have a closer listen to this song and found it quite pleasant. Nice lyrics.Body combat 65 tract 8.

That's right, that's right! [4x]

There you go
Trying to find the words to say
Words only get in the way
Why can't we go back to where we started, where we started?

Oh God I feel so helpless
I don't know where we went wrong
I don't wanna cry
And everything is a mess
Tell me, how can we go on?
When nothing is right

Every time I say enough
I tell myself I'm not in love
My heart beats, my heart bleeds over you
Never ever felt so low
I don't wanna let you go
My heart beats, my heart bleeds over you
[2x]

That's right, that's right! [2x]

There you go
Trying to find the words to say
Words only get in the way
Why can't we go back to where we started, where we started?

Oh God I feel so helpless
I don't know where we went wrong
I don't wanna cry
And everything is a mess
Tell me, how can we go on?
When nothing is right

Every time I say enough
I tell myself I'm not in love
My heart beats, my heart bleeds over you
Never ever felt so low
I don't wanna let you go
My heart beats, my heart bleeds over you
[2x]

That's right, that's right! [4x] 

Re-Con & Demand ft. Mandy Edge