I've Waited Til' All The Flowers Had Withered

In the age of internet you can find almost anything. Found this  song on youtube with english translation as I don't read mandarin at all.One of my favourite song..It speaks of the frustration, 

   lamentation of 

 waiting for someone. the song writter says wait till the flowers have 

wither. While that's life. All of us have some way or another find ourselves in such situation. 

No one likes waiting.  No point of waiting and waste you time on such a one. You time is better spent on other worthwhile matters.  Move on..

 

IT'S YEAR 2023

 Today is January, 29th 2023. In two day's time we will be entering into February,2023. Time really move fast.This is the new year, many things happen in year past we cannot undo,but what we can do is not to repeat those mistakes again.

I cannot deny there were good memories, but at the same time must face the reality that somethings cannot last forever and people do change. So it is better to just move on. Try not to act. on impluse.

Also I need to cut down on expenses, and be more careful on my on line purchases. Time to save some money for rainy days.

I prayed for better days ahead . Just live a day at a time.

YOU HAVE LOST THAT LOVING FEELIN'

 Tom Jones sings it "It's not unusual to be loved by anyone

Elvis sings 

Which is your favourite?

A QUIET FATHER'S DAY

Yesterday (june 19th) had a quite Father's day celebration with my family. suddently I had some old memories of yesteryears when I used to play the role of father to some God daughters. Unfortunately all except for one have left me.

One girl I took care when she was just 2 years or so. Occasionaly she would stay over night with me. I would pick her up from the baby sitter as her parent worked quite late and the baby sitter center closed early. so the arrangemtn was I would pick her up on the way back from my office and the parent will later pick her up after their dinner. This was the arrangement till she was about 10 years or so. Then one fine morning when I met her , she did not greet me with her usual hug and when I asked her she did not response. I asked her father about it and he promised will give me an answer .till this day I have not receive the answer.  We will meet  as we attend the same church,but I have never brought u[ the issue again.  I just don't understand, in my mind I just reliase I have been used. and since I had serve their purpose, I am no longer needed.

The second case involved a girl working at the gym and this was the shortest relationship. She was very carring when she agreed to be my god daughter and all this changed, when she prefer to listen to a lie about me and  that was the end of our rather short friendship.

The last one hurt me very much.  I met her about 13 years ago at a gym and she was the first one to

befriend me and even introduced me to the rest of her group of friends.  One fine day during dinner and

intentional invited another friend to dinner with her and during dinner I asked if she would like to be my god daughter, but she did not answer yes nor did she decline. so I  mention to her "so since you remain silent I would take it as a yes and my friend will be the witness. sure enough the next day at the gym she called  ne Dad , since she our relationship grew and we even had a couple of trips together. We still kept in touch after she left for Australia and occasionaly will message each other. My last message was not replied and I did not give much thought to it, as she might be busy with her work. Until one day I reliase I was unfriend on her facebook. I check the rest of my family members whom she was friends as well. They too was unfriended. My messages to her was never responsed. So I guess she no longer was to have anything with me . What  sadden me most was I was not even given an explanation, the reason for her action. 

The last one is my rock star weekend daughter. What started as a joke when a few strangers commented if she was my daughter when ever we were at the rock crag. so we started sharing on social media and as a joke would hashtage weekend dotter and she would do the same. somehow over the years she had not dismissed it when I introduce her as my daughter and she would introduced me toour mutual friends

as her Dad.  I just hope she would not abandon me like the rest . So for now I guess I would just enjoy playing my role till who knows when.   I am now in my twilight years and who knows when it's time for me to go. 

JUST LET IT PAST.

 Have you ever wished you have a crystal glass, where you can see the future and thus avoid making a mistake or avoiding someone?

Well that may be good, but I think learning from one's mistake through life's experience is better, even though we might get hurt in the process. At least we can learn from it and not to repeat it.

What is gone, is gone forever, do not yearn for the past. Let it past. New things and far better things are ahead.

People come and go in your life. So be it. But appeciate those who stayed.

LET GO OR LET IT GO?

 

This sunday's service message. I was drawn to one of the point. Let Go.  so is it the same as Let it go .

It does speaks to me. Maybe it's time I let go the thing, what I can no longer on hold to. In order for new things to happen, the old must go. No point clincling to the past. Past is past it will remain as past.The future is new. So that basically sum up Ps Reuben's message. 

Here is a song that is so familiar about let it go.

SO THIS IS GOODBYE FOREVER?

 What a sad event to greet me in year 2022. I found out I have been unfriend. All my messages

were not responsed.   Why oh why is this happening?  What have I done wrong?  At least you have to give me a reason for this action. You know even a condemn man has this right to know why he is condemn.

This would have been our 11 years of relationship.  Time to face reality.  People can change no matter how good you treat them.  so no point living in denial. just let go.. This is a painful lesson for me . I have

to be careful in future .no more getting myself to be involve in such fruitless caring relationship.

I  don't have much years left.Just want to do things I cherish. I am thankful though to have my grand children who cheered me up.

just watching them grow up and enjoy their presence while I still have breath.